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Journal Entry: Fri May 2, 2008, 8:16 PM
  • Mood: Distressed
  • Listening to: Haunted-Evanessence
  • Watching: The light dance across my ceiling
  • Eating: Nothing
  • Drinking: Nothing
My ass is cold...waiting for buses sucks. Hmm...I suppose that is my own fault though. What?! Its not like I can help the fact that I am so easily distracted by catchy show tunes....

*****WARNING*****DRAMA AHEAD******

Ok, so basically I'm in a kinda scary mood, and not in a good way either. I guess it could be blamed on the fact that I'm so stressed out at the moment, but then again I don't really care....well that may actually be the problem. I just don't care. Seriously I could be hit by a truck at this very moment and I don't think I would give a damn. *sighs* Maybe its just Moods, I mean spending this much time at school to tech a stupid show like Moods is kinda depressing, especially after being there all day for classes anyways. Add in the co=op, work, and 3 children that I barely get to see because I'm so damned busy and you get...well I'm not really sure anymore to be honest.

My maternal instincts have gone haywire from being away from the kids for so long, I'm on the edge of a nervous break down, and the only thing that I REALLY want to do right now is curl into a ball and cry.

Hmm...maybe I'll just quit school, that would take a load off my mind. Its not like I've really been doing much work anyways. I have no motivation to. Lets face it, I'm gonna be a failure in life just like the rest of my family. Whats the point in even trying? Whatever, it doesn't matter anymore anyways.

Wow its kinda sad how much emotion I'm NOT feeling as I write this. *laughs*

Oh well, maybe I'll have something better for you guys next time. Sorry for the drama, II just really needed to get this off my chest. They say its not good to keep your emotions bottled up inside...but then again "they" never met me. After all this is barely scraping the surface of my problems...I have a feeling that if anybody, aside from a select few, could see what goes on in this twisted little mind of mine they would be driven insane in a second....or worse.

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Yeah...so now that thats out of my way I'm sorry for the lack of updating. Once again I have absolutely no time, so I will do that when I can.

Sorry guys, I really am....

-Kagari <3

Devious Information

  • Current Age: 17
  • Current Residence: Canada
  • Interests: writing, role playing,music, friends
  • Favourite movie: Sweeney Todd
  • Favourite band or musician: LaFee
  • Favourite genre of music: Techno
  • Favourite poet or writer: Kim Harrison
  • Favourite style of art: vector
  • Operating System: Vista
  • MP3 player of choice: iPod
  • Favourite game: Devil May Cry 3
  • Favourite gaming platform: playstation 3
  • Favourite cartoon character: Mulan
  • Personal Quote: Who do you want to be?! JESUS?
  • Tools of the Trade: my pen and my laptop

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~VariMoon:iconVariMoon: Jun 24, 2008, 10:05:46 AM Mood: Joy
Hello =^.^= I added you as a friend and I also posted some new work if you are interested you should take a look at them =^.^= Also thank you for your support. =^.^=
~HauntedHouse667:iconHauntedHouse667: Jun 19, 2008, 6:37:38 AM
Oooo! Hello Sere!

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Regardless of Warning the Furture doesn't scare me at all...
*KazAzAlwayz:iconKazAzAlwayz: May 2, 2008, 5:40:34 PM
Hai thar! 8D

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You may judge me in whatever way or manner you please, but keep in mind that I am doing the exact same to you.
~:heart:
~Kagari-Z:iconKagari-Z: Apr 13, 2008, 7:20:53 PM
Dude I want to go through it first. And you should know that, I was at your house when I took it all down.

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No matter how close you are....
You're always so far away
~CrossTec:iconCrossTec: Apr 13, 2008, 5:52:14 PM
You kinda-sorta SUCK. <3
Put your stuff back uuuuup!!!!!

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POWER to the POP TARTS
and the WHIPPED CREAM
then don't forget the TECHNO
*wytherwing:iconwytherwing: Mar 10, 2008, 4:07:57 AM
thank you so much for the :+fav: on Black Rose Tat. :blackrose:

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~kill the king when love is the law~
~Kagari-Z:iconKagari-Z: Mar 9, 2008, 3:17:41 PM
True enough, lucky for me I test well.

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No matter how close you are....
You're always so far away
~CSStriker:iconCSStriker: Mar 9, 2008, 10:10:57 AM
finals can be frustrating at times, haha

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Shit happens when you party naked
*Picatso:iconPicatso: Mar 3, 2008, 5:53:33 PM
Thanks for the additional fav as well. I'm glad you enjoy my work! :hug:

As for working with roses I like to think I don't work with any one type of flower all the time. If I'm working with flowers I usually use what I can find in the store that is at a resonable price as well as what kind of flower is going to aid getting my message/emotion through in a photo that I'm wanting to portray. For example the violin series I did I utilized roses because I was wanting a love for the violin/music and a emotion of romance to come through my series and the flower I thought that helped to evoke and is most associated with those emotions is the red rose. So, in the end it just depends what I'm trying to express at the time as well as what I can find/afford in determining what type of flower if any that I use to work with in my photo shoots.

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"We cannot all do GREAT THINGS, but we can do SMALL THINGS WITH GREAT LOVE."
-Mother Teresa

Come check out my prints account!
~Kagari-Z:iconKagari-Z: Mar 3, 2008, 2:30:53 PM
Aww why is school angering you?

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No matter how close you are....
You're always so far away
~CSStriker:iconCSStriker: Mar 2, 2008, 7:33:55 PM
it goes well, even if school is making me furious!

:)

how are you?

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Shit happens when you party naked
~Aleacus:iconAleacus: Mar 2, 2008, 2:07:50 AM
Aww thanks =D

And good! I am glad, it's nice to hope that those who have passed may have taken pleasure in things that still go on in this earth =)

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<4 Aleacus Destroyer of Worlds
~Kagari-Z:iconKagari-Z: Mar 1, 2008, 5:04:57 PM
It along with many others in your gallery is quite beautiful. :heart:

Thank you for the advise. It is hard, but already things are starting to look up. His funeral was on Thursday, it was a beautiful service and I think he would have been proud of everyone.
:hug:

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No matter how close you are....
You're always so far away
~Kagari-Z:iconKagari-Z: Mar 1, 2008, 4:58:32 PM
No Problem :heart: I like the nature shots as well ^-^

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No matter how close you are....
You're always so far away
~Kagari-Z:iconKagari-Z: Mar 1, 2008, 4:54:44 PM
Any time! :heart: I love how you accented Bill's gloves!

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No matter how close you are....
You're always so far away
~Kagari-Z:iconKagari-Z: Mar 1, 2008, 4:53:37 PM
No problem! :heart:Your work is amazing. I especially love the shots with the violin and the roses, and all of the nature shots. Do you work with roses a lot when you shoot?

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No matter how close you are....
You're always so far away
~Kagari-Z:iconKagari-Z: Mar 1, 2008, 4:48:11 PM
Hey, how goes it?

:heart: No problem, its an interesting piece!
:hug:

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No matter how close you are....
You're always so far away
~Kagari-Z:iconKagari-Z: Mar 1, 2008, 4:45:31 PM
Your welcome ^-^

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No matter how close you are....
You're always so far away
~Kagari-Z:iconKagari-Z: Mar 1, 2008, 4:43:36 PM
No problem, you make awesome jewelery ^-^ Thank you for the fav as well. :heart:

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No matter how close you are....
You're always so far away
!jessicamadison:iconjessicamadison: Mar 1, 2008, 5:39:12 AM
Wow! You really are a brilliant poet, aren't you?

Why don't you join the poetry contest from [link] ?


It's free and every nitwit such as myself who enters gets a small gift

but someone like you might win one of their $10 000 or $100 000 prizes.
~Aleacus:iconAleacus: Feb 28, 2008, 6:01:18 PM
Thanks for the :+fav: on Bottle of Poison...

I read your journal, and I'm very sorry to hear about a recent death in your school. Death of anyone, whether they were your best friend or just an acquaintance, is hard to cope with... Especially suicide. Those "why" or "what if" questions plague you... Take heart my dear, and allow yourself grief if you haven't. It may be hard to move on, but don't dwell on it too much either.

:hug:

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<4 Aleacus Destroyer of Worlds